The Lost Will Initiations
The purpose of this series of Healing Transmissions is to bring about the safe space and inner intention to retrieve, heal and evolve the Emotional Body. The Lost Will is all of our feelings, sensations and emotions, as well triggering memories. Our Will has become lost and fragmented throughout the deep space of our inner environment because, we have been taught to push aside and deny our really deep feelings, in response to life. We have all been ‘manufactured’ to handle, transcend, numb out or deny our true and authentic response, and this has become a serious problem and block to the evolution of humanity and our planet.
The way this process works is by first listening to a 'story' of a collective wound deep within the psyche - a story that will be known by all..These stories contain the "Original" birth of these feelings within the human psyche. Taking us far back into the deep recesses of the Primordial Original Feeling. The spark of the Creation. My great feeling - is that this is where the healing occurs. Woven within the spoken words of this 'story' are the energetic emotional threads that carries the wisdom on how to 'touch' and 'connect' with your own Lost Will that contains your innocent, emotional essence that desperately needs to return to you now.
After listening to the story the healing transmission process will begin, as we work together to in co-creation with our Creator to retrieve the Lost Will so that the transmission can anchor into your body at a deeper level. You are required to tenderly assert your intention to re-discover the feelings of your Lost Will. Allow yourself to feel vast and wide, being open to receive all communication from your Lost Will into your receptive body. Slowly and gently the innocence of the Lost Will, will return. Step by step "She" will cautiously return, communicating piece by piece with all of her closed down feelings – simply be loving enough to receive and feel them with Her as you honestly acknowledge Her existence. Gently pull open the 'core' of the feeling to be exposed to the Conscious "Penetrative" Light within the healing transmission. Use this safe time to invite yourself into the sanctuary that we are creating together, so you can feel and drop into these parts of yourself that you may have been once avoiding.
To those who are called to retrieve The Lost Will Transmissions, and who want to move as safely, deeply and effectively as possible in order to have a well rounded and deep shift, I suggest that you embark on a 10-week course. When you sign up you will receive a guided audio file with the 'story' into the emotional realm where these feelings are stored. During this time, you can receive as much email support as you need, with reflection and counsel. You can also choose to receive these transmissions individually - at a time span that suits you. This process usually takes about 5 days to integrate. Notice how you feel in the days afterwards, and what shifts for you. I have found that keeping a diary of your dreams, day time experiences and meditations/journey’s very insightful and grounding. These transmissions are intended to unearth some very deep aspects of Being, in many ways you are truly retrieving a part of you, that has ‘believed” itself to have never known God, and carrying the feeling that it never will do. This is tender, gentle and sensitive work. Treat yourself kindly and lovingly as you progress on. I am with you every step of the way.
Suggested Reading - The Right Use of Will (and all her other books) - Ceanne DeRohan
Suggested Listening - AJ Miller and Mary Luck www.divinetruth.com
IMPORTANT:
Transmissions are a 'ritualistic' opening, and the beginnings of a removal of the effect of a wound, making it much easier for you to get to the core of the wound. But only you can do that. This transmission is to invite you to discover your Lost Will. These are your feelings, sensations and emotions that you have cast out and powerfully suppressed, so much so that they have broken away from you. Only your consciousness with the openness of heart will be able to touch and re-connect with your Lost Will. When you connect, breathe into the feelings and emotions and bring them back into your body. After the transmission you may have feelings about what your core wound is and being able to wrap words around it, so you can share. With this wisdom you will be equipped to take full and total self responsibility and do the healing you need to. If you do not do this, you will not be healed of the reason why you created Lost Will. Only you can heal yourself. This is very important. At the start of every transmission, ask yourself to connect with your Lost Will, asking: WHERE DOES THIS STORY TOUCH ME, AND WHAT IS THE EFFECT OF THIS WOUND COVERING WITHIN ME? HOW HAVE I EXPERIENCED THIS?
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The Cry of the Soul
This is the first of the Lost Will Transmissions. The Cry of the Soul is your first step to retrieving the Lost Will. This transmission will reveal to you your true emotional condition of your soul, and the deep cry within which you have tried not to hear. This transmission is deeply intimate and profound, and will bring your spirit and soul into connection with...
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The Original Rape
The Original Rape is a story that is felt within our collective psyche that causes comparison, contrast and competition between women. It is the unspoken ‘reason’ why fundamentally we have not trusted one another (women). This wound is ancient and has been recognized throughout the various physiological schools of thought as well as the Yogic/tantric philosophical understandings of human nature. This wound between women can...
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The Original Fear
The Original Fear is a story that is felt within our collective psyche as a wave of pure terror, for being “cast out”, rejected, and banished for the feminine. This emotion was felt for the very first time when God The Father (Spirit), ‘pushed’ The Mother (Will) away from him, by casting her out into deep space. This feeling of absolute rejection, falling into the...
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The Original Guilt
The Original Guilt is a story that is felt within our collective psyche as a wave of pure despair and irreparable damage, after “casting out”, rejecting, and banishing our feminine essence. This emotion was felt for the very first time when God The Father (Spirit), ‘pushed’ The Mother (Will) away from him, by casting her out into deep space. This feeling of unforgivable error, opens...
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The Original Denial
The Original Denial is a story that is felt in response to The Original Fear. It is felt within our collective psyche as a constant heavy dull inauthenticness and inability to be wholly present and trusting. Because its charge is one of energetic paralysis, emotional unavailability and a cutting off from your own essence human beings have constantly denied its presence and turned away from...
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The Original Death
The Original Death is a story that is felt in response to The Original Fear, Guilt and Denial. It is felt within our collective psyche as a lifeless, empty purposelessness. Most important to note here is that this feeling of "Death" is one that has been chosen over life. The stagnation and dullness within has moved you towards death, rather than fighting for life. It...
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The First Child – Creation of the Triangle Dynamic
The First Child is a story that is felt when a partnership introduces the third element. This could be the first child in the family, a guest staying for a long time, an animal companion or the turning of your partners attention to another family member. It is the feelings of moving from a twosome to a threesome. This feeling has been heavily denied, and...
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The Creation of a Second Lover
The Creation of a Second Lover is a story that is felt when a person in a committed relationship takes a secret lover. This can be a lover in the real sense, and also a projected fantasy of someone you have in mind. It is the same reaction. This story reveals the deep emotional reasons why a lover has been created. It covers the moment...
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The Creation of Self Doubt
The Creation of a Self Doubt is a story that is felt when the weight of doubt in yourself, your existence and the innate goodness of your soul is questioned. Again, this feeling in its essence is innocent, but because it undermines our sense of infallibility and immortality - it is immediately rejected. It is felt within our collective psyche as a feeling that we...
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The Original Hate
The Original Hate is a story that is felt in response to meeting a loveless form, one that truly wishes to malevolently cause you harm. This feeling is one that we hardly respond to, casting it from our conscious as being judgemental, unloving and dis-trusting. We have been too afraid to feel and recognise its essence. Hate, simply is a strong aversion against merging with...

