I can tell by the sickness in my belly that I have ancestors who were connected to this. Be they young women, children or Nuns, in my bloodline this horror exists. Ever since I can remember, I have had a recurring dream of a dark nun with no face gliding down the corridor coming after me because I have run away.
What is it about Nuns that is unloving and heinously cruel?
I feel called to go and visit an old Laundry, and strangely enough one is just 20 mins from my parents' home, which is where I am now, to lay flowers for the girls, women and children who had to abide at that God forsaken place. I know I have to turn and face my ancestors and see the faces of the Nun's whose blood I share and forgive them. As I write in this here now moment, that seems almost impossible to do.
Really impossible. But I have to do it. Because when I see photos of these laundries or watch movies, I see how there are statues of the Virgin Mary everywhere - and how those girls must have prayed to Her and felt She did not hear them. And how the Nuns must have prayed to Her, feeling they were acting in Her name. They were not! They were so very far from the Truth, and instead, doing the Will of Wickedness.
I can just about grasp what that must feel like for the Nuns, and that is a very bleak and desolate place, and I feel horribly called to go visit that place, in the Name of the real Divine Mother. Is there anyone else that this subject touches? If there are more of us, I would create a transmission as a gift (strange word) to the brave souls willing to do this.
Thank you for reading, thank you for feeling. May the Grace that wishes to touch this dreadful blemish in our not so distant past already be reaching the souls that suffered so terribly.